A new Certificate NAMI Facilitator

I am so excited, this last Friday 24, & Saturday 25, I took my second set of classes to be a Teacher, now I am a Family to Family Facilitator! I will strive to take all of their classes Local, State & National levels. So I will be teaching out of Santa Rosa when I am scheduled but I am hoping to find a place in Cloverdale /Healdsburg/ Geyserville or Hopland to hold classes. Only 6per class if I am the only teacher. 2 Facilitators are recommended so that there is a shared responsibility of over seeing the students/members. All Classes are FREE. Becoming a member helps NAMI do its work for those in need of mental illness understanding, Educate, Advocate, Listen & Lead.

How and Why I went looking for help on Mental Illness. A friend and I decided we needed help copping with the effects of having a child with Schizophrenia. I found NAMI. but my story goes way back to my DNA. My Mother was mentally ill with a mix of diagnoses. Bipolar Disorder 2, Personalities Disorder, & Drug & Alcohol addiction. My Mother’s Story also was DNA started. My oldest sons story started with DNA. I Love my children so very much and there is a difference between ones Mother being mentally ill & ones child being mentally ill. With my Mom I was raised caring for someone mentally ill but she was an adult and she seemed to like her trauma, along with all of the health issues she had I grew up being the parent. My son my first born a huge piece of my heart ripped out as I sat behind a plexiglass window listening to my child tell me he is god and the pyramids are talking to him, the vacant yet crazy eyes and body language, I needed help to cope, to learn how to help my son, and so began my search for mental illness therapy help. What I found in NAMI Sonoma County was EDUCATION and the therapy of getting to know others in the same life raft as as you! If ANYONE reading this ever needs someone to talk to I am here. Just understand I work long late hours so it might be a day or so for me to get back to you or go to the link for NAMI Website and call the Warmline.

May your journey bring knowledge to you so that you become a teacher for the next person or child that is in need of it.

The saying…. When it is time for your lesson to start the Teacher will appear. Or When it’s time for you to teach the students will appear.

A few links below for NAMI Website & 2 different articles on Mental Health vs Mental Illness.

NAMI is such a wonderful support organization for those copping with loved ones with mental illnesses. I am in NAMI Sonoma County. What does NAMI stand for? National Alliance on Mental Illness = NAMI. NAMI Website https://namisonomacounty.org/

Mental Health vs Mental Illness https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/reaching-across-the-divide/201804/the-difference-between-mental-health-and-mental-illness

Mental health vs Mental Illness https://magellanhealthinsights.com/2018/05/23/mental-health-vs-mental-illness/

Mental Health vs Mental Illness https://www.heretohelp.bc.ca/q-and-a/whats-the-difference-between-mental-health-and-mental-illness

Happy Mother’s Day in my Zen place.

Mother’s Day a celebration of those who take the full roll of caregiver. A person who raises you, a person who makes the pain better & the person who a large piece of your heart will always belong to.

A person who fills this roll doesn’t have to give you birth, this person doesn’t have to be a female, you can have more than one mom & this person can be a mom to animals too.

Mother’s Day can be a hard day for those who have lost the person that filled this roll. Keep them in your thoughts as you celebrate with yours. My Mother is gone.

I love being a Mother to my 3 sons Jason, Raymond & Tyler. Two I gave birth to one we took guardianship of at age 7 my oldest nephew & I have had many Fur babies and will be to many more. I do not want gifts yet they have given them to me and I love & cherish each one I have received. I want only time with my children every day I am blessed to have them, but on this day I love the time together that we have.

This year my Mother’s Day is a bit of heartache as 2 of my boys are not able to be with me. My oldest is in jail because he had his first Schizophrenic break while in another state. My youngest is in Navel school so I cannot see them or be with them.

My middle child spent the day with me helping me in my garden which is what I asked for & no gift. Then my husband & son made dinner & my daughter-in-law came over.

We worked hard in the garden and there is still much to do but it’s coming along. I feel such an accomplishment when working in my garden a feeling of Zen of Fulfillment. When my family helps it bring such a joy into my soul, my being is grounded & my heart fills with such Love there is no room for anything else in it.

I send Blessings to every Mother.

When we are doing this will be a self watering garden
Progress in the garden

Work, Working & Busy Getting Things Done Work & Wasted T.I.M.E. “The 4 letter word.”

I am trying to work on my business timeline schedule and I am finding it very hard currently as I have a lot of things at home that need to be done personal & personal biz. & my Job. A crazy glimpse into my Chaotic life & headspace.

This long list of The 3 W’s & Time are my little Rant on them and just to let others know they are not alone in their Chaos. Learn to Ask for help (hard to do I know), Learn your limits, keep making those To Do Lists, Learn to Stop and give yourself time to just sit and breathe for 5 minutes 10-15 minutes is better, & Remember you’re never really alone, it may feel that way at times but we are out there. I got this it just takes me a few tries sometimes but I will get things done.

I wake about 7a-8a just depends, I get things done like dishes, load or 2 of laundry, fold & put away my laundry, if I have time try to catch 1 tv show on DVR before getting house work done with 2-3 cups of coffee to bring me down from my edgy attitude I wake with because I don’t sleep through a night I toss & turn from the tingling numbness that happens after an hr or so from pressure on my L1-L5 squeezed spinal cords. I’m not a delightful morning person. I drink a whole pot of coffee +, before leaving for work/ job (Coffee calms me down I don’t get the wake me up, buzz, or energy).

I’m so busy most days especially this time of the year the 3 “W’s” of my life kick in and my manic side takes over and it’s go, go, & GO! I have my job I leave my house around 10:45a to be at Work 12p-8p but if there are no clients then no work & I am on call waiting all day for maybe 1 client so I really cannot get to busy because I have 1 hour. I get changed to work clothes drive 45min & get room ready. A client at 12p-12:50p and one at 6p-7:20p, I am stuck there and homework is what I mostly accomplish it’s good But… my Work at home is not getting done. I live about 45min from work and wasted gas if I drive home, only to have to return hours later more wasted time and money.

Work J.O.B.; fulfilling someone else’s dream and goals their rules, their money, never knowing if a full work day, only a few clients, clients with hours in between wasting gas & money vs Working My Personal Biz my Dream my money!

When there are wasted hours in my day I feel depressed and agitated. This combination is not good for me being an energy worker, Massage Therapist & Holistic Therapy at my Work/Job I am an independent contractor so no clients no payments so wasted time, loss of money, loss of my working & getting things done work.

Working; Then I have my current business of crafting & Massage and Therapy with personal clients. Working on my business plan for ZenEden Getting all of the involvement of what I need. Planning on where I am going the sooner the better! Get to the investors to get it rolling and start healing & helping others. Starting the Non-Profit & For Profit. That will govern ZenEden Ranch & Healing Retreat.

I know if I start a Work project I’ll get into it and lose track of time because that project becomes my focus. So my Personal Business is suffering and not getting accomplished just left until I maybe have enough time during an evening.

Working-Busy; The vegetable garden needs to be built and planted, Care of plants I have everything from replanting to separating young plants from parent to its own, to cleaning the gardening areas & watering this can take 3-4 hours to do currently, we are hoping to put in a drip & spray system in after the new vegetable garden is set up and finished on its self watering system. There is the everyday things around the house that need to be done on top of this ( I need a house keeper because I hate cleaning but also someone to help me get & keep organized I’m a messy person, chaos surrounds me.

I need to be outside with my plants, working in the soil, watering, replanting, propagating, cleaning the outside to look nice, to bring a peacefulness to my Spirit, bring about my abilities to exchange energy with my beloved plants. This time of year you will mostly find me outside creating my gardens.

During the Winter month my depression & S.A.D. set in. Winter is getting crafting done work on the indoors projects, time to clean crafting areas up maybe? I watch a lot of Hallmark Channel & Read a lot. The struggle of what was me going, going & going has almost disappeared from myself. Do I really do not leave the house, because being around other people’s energy hurts me. To many people and their full on mixed flow of energy make my body ill.

T.I.M.E. there just doesn’t seem to be enough in the day & evening. F.U. T.I.M.E. the 4 Letter category. I am always trying to make a schedule for myself, (I have them all over the house). Finding time & making time are difficult for me. I’m easily distracted to another project and forgetting the one I Just was doing. I am getting better though over the years.

Well there it is a long rant about 4 Letter Words – Work & Time. I hope this didn’t bore to many.

Blessings be bountiful to you.